The Disgusting Man


I finally can read                   
                     your hollow mind,                        
                              and your shallow thoughts                                                  
                                                                        oppress me.  
I don’t understand how                        
                              you can bear being here                                               
                                                                      silent,                                               
                                                                      abstinent,                                               
                                                                      alone.                           
                                    But the fact of it                                              
                                                                   depresses me.  
You should be out there,                              
                                         in the heart of the world,                              
                                         in the thick of it all,                   
                        out on the move,                                    
                                                  socializing,                                    
                                                  learning,                                    
                                                  growing,                    
                        making the best                                   
                                             of your life,                                   
                                             of your youth.  
Instead,              
            you stand here                             
                               before me,                                        
                                               confused,                                         
                                               subdued,                  
                 mirroring me,                  
                 mimicking me,                  
                 reflecting me.                                 
                                        An idiot,                                 
                                        a fool,                                 
                                        a soulless,                                             
                                                       helpless man.                                 
                              Fixed.                                 
                              Confined.                                 
                              Unable to move.                                 
                              Defeated.                                 
                              Confused...                   
                              Confused.  
You disgust me. 
You disgust me.